The last few days have been the worse of my life..feels like I cant go on..feels like a part of me have died..
Bad thoughts kept on intruding..jilted lover thoughts..why did he do that for? is it because he's bored of me?? why does it have to hurt so? if he loved me like he said he did...why did he hurt me?
when I am with him everything is all right again...he soothes me...every time we chat my insecuritties fade away...it felt right with him...have chatted to many..have met many..and none felt right...dont know why he felt right..for someone I haven't met he felt right...what I want most in the world is for him to be safe..to be happy..and to not have a heavy heart..
It doesn't matter any more..it doesnt matter why it happened..I must seek comfort in the knowledge that he cares for me... I must seek comfort in that he is still around..may be not as often as before..I must seek comfort that we are doing the right thing for all involved..
every time I think about us tears start rolling again...dont want to go on this path..but there is no other way..cant turn back..so just have to go on..and may be just may be the path might get easier...the scenery prettier...
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