Practising

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a person we all dream to be is there if we only take the time to mould ourselves to be that person..it is not easy for old habits die hard...

it has been 5 months and well I havent gotten very far..more disciplined may be..with my walking to and from work..the weather have mostly been on my side so far...some days I was about to chuck it in and take the car to work..rainy..cold..my feet sore...

then there are days I didn't want to get up...like today..tired...lack of sleep...late nights in a row..work is not any better..had a bad day yesterday...busy..not only that one of my patient gave me a pat on my backside....lol... another dê cụ ...he's gone home...and probably busy again today..have to put on my happy face again and face my patients..when all I really want to do is crawl into bed to snooze for another few hours...

want to drive back to Melbourne on Wednesday...yet don't know if I will have the energy to drive back...another commitment down the drain..

my unit is in a mess...have carted stuff from Melbourne down to sort out..I am trying to clean up my own mess,..one of my new year's resolution...ummmm not too well...tends to bầy bừa

I am "chaos" my unit is the state of my mind...state of my life....chaos..it started out as nice and neat...and slowly slipping into "chaosdom"...what I want is my life to be more ordered...know where I am..know where I am going....instead of never knowing where I am at that moment in time....

at the moment I am still in the black hole..no beginning and no ending...just floating...

ummmmm 5 months gone...do I just accept it? or do I work harder to be that person? ...no...I won't give up...there must be a way...another way to do it....