Safe

All my life I have played it safe...have been a good girl...never did anything wrong to win my parent's approval...

Growing up I befriended loners like myself just so I dont get rejected..I followed a health profession so there is always jobs around...I married a guy that adored me ..

I never did anything risky...if it was it was a calculated risk..if I sat exams I crammed all the possible topics that the questions might come from..thus lowering my risk..

If I played the pokies it is just for fun...$50 is my limit..when it is gone it is time to go..for can never win against the machine..I rarely play Tattslotto..the times I play are in syndicates with colleagues..

Yet I love with wild abandoning only to be awaken rudely after I have fallen by my insecurities...

I dont want to replay the same tape over and over again...I want to not play it safe anymore...I want to take risks for once and not worried about the consequences..