It's 439am...I cant sleep so woke up...been crying again...the sickening feeling in my stomach wont go away...
Logically how can something end when it hasn't started..we haven't even met..we live so far away...thousands of miles apart...and we are both tied to our families..
Emotionally he's left a big void in me that I doubt anyone in this life time can ever fill...it was easy chatting to him...I looked forward to our chats..he brightened up my days..it's like I have found someone who was on the same wavelength as me...never felt like that with anyone else..
even when we are miles apart...just being with him I felt like he was right there next to me...
the last weeks have been hard..so hard that I dont know how I muddled through it...nearly got rammed by a truck...found a park on the other side of the road..thinking it was only a small street so I checked for traffic to my left from the main road and forgot about my right...if the truck didnt brake I would have been a goner..
chi. K asked me am I willing to let him go...I said no ..what if you found someone else down the track? ..I replied...there will be no one else..have given him my heart and that's it ..
will be here waiting for him till the end of my days...
Logically how can something end when it hasn't started..we haven't even met..we live so far away...thousands of miles apart...and we are both tied to our families..
Emotionally he's left a big void in me that I doubt anyone in this life time can ever fill...it was easy chatting to him...I looked forward to our chats..he brightened up my days..it's like I have found someone who was on the same wavelength as me...never felt like that with anyone else..
even when we are miles apart...just being with him I felt like he was right there next to me...
the last weeks have been hard..so hard that I dont know how I muddled through it...nearly got rammed by a truck...found a park on the other side of the road..thinking it was only a small street so I checked for traffic to my left from the main road and forgot about my right...if the truck didnt brake I would have been a goner..
chi. K asked me am I willing to let him go...I said no ..what if you found someone else down the track? ..I replied...there will be no one else..have given him my heart and that's it ..
will be here waiting for him till the end of my days...
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