Swimming

A year ago I ran away...too griefstriken to want to live anymore..wanted to end it..life was just too hard...

found myself a job..and I took off to Geelong..the first week there I thought to myself ..what have I done? my family in a shamble..the job was stressful since I have not worked full-time for 12 years..the travelling..on my third week there the incharge went on holidays..and I was it..chucked in the deep end..

to think I applied for the lowly job of a Grade 1 ..to take it easy..a year on..and now I am a Grade 2..got promoted..next week I am incharge again..this time for 4-5 weeks..added to it more responsibilities..

the Director asked me at my appraisal if I can manage...I replied yes..I can do it but I don't like it..

here I am ..wanting to run away again..how did I get here? wasn't meant to be like this..a Grade 1 position would have been fine..

PS my incharge said to me yesterday..you can do it...think of it as a challenge..

used to love challenges..now that I am older must have grown lazy..too comfortable..yet for the last year or so have pulled it off magnificently..

guess I am who I am..chuck me in the deep end and watch me swim..have never been a drowner..or am I ??