Need

This morning he cuddled me..and we talked some more...

I told him I do love you...yet part of me is upset at you ....may be by going away will make you miss me..may be by going away will make you appreciate me more...I do appreciate you...no...you don't ...you think I stay on the computer to chat all day..it doesn't matter how much I do ..you never see it ..I don't want to have to prove myself to you anymore...

I know you love me...and whatever I want...you let me have...that's your love for me ..to me it's not love...giving someone what they want is not love...it's spoiling them....you think I want to go to Geelong..thus you let me go .. it never occurred to you that I need to go to Geelong ..I can't cope with this life any more ..that's why I am going ..

I know you love me in your own way ...you say you love me and you do things for me because you care...yet I can't feel that love ...for you do it because you want to show you love me...yet inside you resent me..all I feel is your resentment...not your love...