Falling

I am still falling and oblivious to anything and everything else..in my heart there is no one else but him...Aubergine...after only a few text posts..I fell...didn't even know what he looked like then or his name...just knew him by his nick...

everytime I saw his posts my heart did somersaults..felt alive..felt wonderfully alive..the more I got to know him...the more I fell...deeper and deeper..he's the one for me..

he's funny...he's smart...he's caring...he's dễ thương ...he's got me hook line and sinker and body as well...for not only my fishing rod is gone..but me also...

this time I am not rushing..or worried...we chat and chat..and time will tell...but for now..it is wonderful...it's been 3 months now..and every bit of it is heaven..it feels like it's going to last a lifetime ...

the somersaults are gone..and the love I feel for him have progressed to a deeper love...finally I have fallen for the right person...we have set the date for 5 years to meet...it's an agonising wait..for if given the chance I would be on the first flight out to go see him...

it is that bad...missing him heaps and heaps...it's a wonder I get anything done...been keeping busy everyday so I dont let myself think... about him..about us..about our meeting..

this time it felt right...felt relax...felt happy...not like the others..where I would go out of my way to try to please them..to try to be a great person to get them to like me...

there's no pressure...there's no trying...just felt natural around Aubergine...well may be an eensy weensy bit...eheheh for every opportunity he gets he would hint about our meeting...ehhehe

like ummmm you know so and so are flying over soon...may be you should go with her...ehehhe or you know the reason you can't find the right clothes is because Melbourne is too small and may be you should fly over here for we've got lots of clothes..more variety...

well sorry Aubergine my dear...you've just got to wait.. I am not ready yet..when I am I will be there in your arms...I need to be sure really sure and I am not as yet..

my heart want to be with you...my instincts tell me you are the one...my head is still resisting...5 years?? it might be as soon as 3 years...at this rate I am succumbing fast..and I am scared...scared of my feelings for you...scared of losing you....after finally finding you...