Mourning

07/07/09...have been mourning all week..10/07/09 will be the hardest day to get through..it will be one year the day Aub went away...

yet in spite of all the sadness..I have made new friends..a new life..have had an adventure..and I have fallen in love again..

I have learnt if I am to live a half baked life then might as well give my life to someone else who will live it to the fullest..that is what I have been doing all along..dreaming..yet unable to make my dreams come true...

I have two routes...either go back...live the life I have been living...a safe harbour...no worries financially..a roof over my head...security...or stay...work...still have a roof over my head...yet alone...inside I am scared ****less..scared of being alone...being out at sea..no more harbour

Life is too short..too preciously short to sit here dreaming and wondering...